Funk

So i have to admit, ive been in quit a funk. Mother’s day kinda left me feeling blue. Im almost 42 and had always wanted a second child with my long time bf. We had 2 miscarriages plus time never seemed right to actually actively try. Starting over having a 16 year old also seemed unappealing but that feeling was already there…that strange desire to have another. Well, in December i had a partial hysterectomy because i had a giant tumor (benign) which would have made it difficult to near impossible to conceive anyway. It just wasnt in the cards… does anyone else go thru this post miscarriage, post hysterectomy. A chapter was closed. The motel condemned.

Total downer. Sorry.

I blog in the bath…

I love taking baths. I let the water run in so slow (just love the sound, i find it soothing). I read my emails, call my Mom, play on instagram. Its a moment of me time with the weight of the world floating on top of my shoulders in this scalding hot water. 😉

Try it. Maybe not the scalding but the concept.

Sighhhh.

Good morning mother’s day…

Seems mostly just another day. I had meant to go to yoga this morning but was dragging ass and there went that…i find myself dragging ass more than i actually go, oh well, one of these days.

I feel like doing absolutely nothing but watch cheesy hallmark movies in my pajamas.

Is it just me?

Happy Mother’s Day.

Almost 42 and still trying to figure it out.

I am just a pretty ordinary Mom, girlfriend, employee, etc. who is trying to make it through each day with sanity intact! Wondering who else out there might be feeling the same. I decided to do this, sort of, diary to share my frustrations, accomplishments, pitfalls, emotional break-downs in hopes to connect with others, help others and maybe even help myself…let’s see where this goes, my ladies! Therapy is for the birds (*for me!!!!*), I’ve tried and havent found “the one” and I’m sure my bf and gf’s dont know what to say. I need relatable women!

Soooo how about it… Im going to give it a whirl. Are you in too?

I have a fairly big potty mouth…fair warning!